Just a month ago, I lost my dear friend Nicole to bile duct cancer. For two years, one of my closest friends has been in palliative care for breast cancer. She tried treatment with zero effect so she chose to live her life to the fullest for the time she had left. Then, I find out that one of my closest friends has multiple brain tumours and has been given 6-9 months.
FUCK, stop already.
Last week, LML’s step-grandmother passed away. She was old, with failing health and a long life filled with lots of family who love her and will miss her. That’s the type of death you’re supposed to deal with. Not the 45-year-old brilliant scientist mother of two boys or a 46-year-old woman who finally learned what it was like to live her authentic self, just to die slowly. Not the late 50’s man who is finally able to retire, enjoy his children and grandchild and vacation in his villa in Tuscany only to be given less than a year to do so.
FUCK YOU CANCER.
It’s horrible to be angry with a disease. There’s no face to scream at, no cause to point to and say “well if this hadn’t have happened, these families wouldn’t be so torn apart and devastated”. I don’t believe in God in the Catholic sense, so there’s no use hating a higher power that “did this” to my loved one. I feel useless, helpless, angry, devastated, sad and full of sorrow.
Enjoy yourself, it’s later than you think.
That’s my mantra now. I took bereavement leave over LML’s step-grandmother. I didn’t really morn her, hell I didn’t really know here, but I took the time, to hang with LML, extend our vacation and I don’t feel guilty about that in the slightest. I’m booking vacations and great dinners so that we can enjoy life to the fullest because you truly never know when your last vacation or epic dinner will be your last.
- Tell people you love them
- Be kind to people
- Smile
- Hug your children
- Be grateful for what you have and humble about it.
- Live every day to the fullest.
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